[bali: 09.29.04 - 7:23pm]

bali is BEAUTIFUL!!! we are here and we spent the whole day at the beach lounging, going in the water, and talking with the locals. good stuff. going to this club tonight. ku de ta. should be good. the locals said it was. everything is dirt cheap here. it's awesome. and it's just so beautiful. this is where i want to come back for my honeymoon. 3 wks here. dirt cheap. amazing. island hoping. good stuff. going to the monkey forest tomorrow. then to another island. then back here to learn to surf the morning i leave. then jessica and lo will wander more. i wish i had more time because i love this place. HK and bali are worlds different. i mean WORLDS. that's all for now.

[hong kong: 09.26.04 - 12:04pm]

in hk. same as when i remember as a kid. crowded. crazy. mass consumption. old and new all together. etc etc. wish i could write more but no time right now. might buy new digicam. yikes! gonna go hiking today. good times overall. YMCA is lovely.

i'm all packed and ready to go. woo! we leave for the airport in about an hour. can't wait. stayed at the office late tonight just kickin it cuz i had nothing else to do. i forgot to mention how joseph now have 2 nicknames for me -- jenius and mursenary. haha good stuff. sometimes alan calls me "the jenius" and it cracks me up cuz he says it so straight-faced. it's hilarious. anyway, i'll be back on the 4th. so until then...

this morning was very unkind to me. i woke up with the worst hangover i've ever had i think. or one of the worst. i guess considering the amount of alcohol i consumed last nite, the hangover was far too nasty for that. it's different when u go balls to the wall and get so shitfaced u can't see straight. u expect the hangover to be bad. but i didn't drink *that* much. sheesh. but i did drink a shitload of apply martinis and they have a lot of sugar in them so i think that's what did me in. the sugar. always gives u a bad hangover. i should have known better. the party was fun. there were a bunch of people there in the beginning. it was nuts. me and jessica felt awkward. i only knew a couple of people there from my internship and i wasn't going to chat it up with the bosses all night. altho later we all did have a good chat with one of the alan's. one other intern was invited at the last minute and i was glad for that because he and his guest talked with me and jessica for the whole night. and once pat and his crew came they joined us. and joseph too when his business deals were done. so it was good. the younger folk bonding. the shiner man chimed in a lot too. interesting fella. haha the other intern was getting into it with alan over what the best radiohead album is. eventually it got to be late and the bar was closing up so we all went over to joseph's place and chatted and drank more. then we left around like 3am i think. it was good times i thought. i enjoyed myself thoroughly. but yea. this morning kicked my ass. hardcore. now i'm gonna head over to the office and get some last minute stuff done on this media kit. then pack up the last few toiletries and we are heading out to the airport. woo! can't wait. this trip is gonna rock.

DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!! finals are DONE. the book is DONE. i am DONE! haha not really. i gotta work on this media kit still. but it doesn't have to get done before tomorrow so it's good. the book held up and people liked it. some people had some really cool books. everyone's was like really touchy tho. u couldn't handle them too much or they'd break. but that's because they were handmade. so c'mon. give us a little credit.

and guess what i found out. so cory's roommate phil isn't much of a talker. i've met him on several occasions and he was always not very talkative except the first time i met him when he was drunk. but even then he wasn't all that friendly. just loud. so i always thought he wasn't very sociable and nice. and cory even said that that's true. he's not sociable and he's a total dick. well turns out cory asked him if he didn't like me or whatever and he doesn't! the man does not like me!!! and more so he thinks i'm arrogant!!! what the bloody fuck? i know that i can come off as arrogant to some people but not to him. we barely talk. and that's not because of me. that's because of him. he doesn't talk! he's the arrogant one. what a prick. i can't believe it. i think i'm likable. whatever. i don't care if he doesn't like me. but still. it's crazy. cory was like, "but i like you jen. don't worry. phil's a dick and doesn't like anyone really." guess so. fuckin eh.

today has been chaos. total chaos for everyone in my branding class. essentially we all have to make books for our final due tomorrow at 8:30am. what sucks is that our teacher wanted us to bring in the rough materials for one last check yesterday. so in theory we had from yesterday morning til tomorrow morning to get our shit printed and bound. and i'm not talking some simple spiral bound at kinkos. i'm talking saddle stitch with a nice cover to hide it. perfect bound by hand since where u gonna get someone to perfect bind your shit in one day? creative alternative types of binding. basically shit that takes time and money.

so my idea was making my book like a record. basically the front and back cover are made of old 45's. then the pages are cut to circles the same size as the records. the binding is a "simple" rivet that holds them all together on the left side so the pages swivel. well let me tell u, this shit has been a nightmare. first i got my pages printed. they were doubled sided color on 80lb silk coated cover stock. something with a nice weight to it so it wouldn't tear easily. or so u would think... so i got it printed last friday so that i could spend the weekend cutting each page into a circle. now if u hadn't thought about it, cutting circles is a fucking nightmare. basically there are 3 ways to go about it. 1) cut with scissors around a circle either printed on the page or somehow constructed from guidelines with pencil. 2) use a circle cutter. 3) get a die cut made and have it professionally cut. now, option 1 is out because scissors aren't very precise. or should i say, your hand isn't very precise with scissors. option 3 is far too expensive. so option 2 it was. one catch...circle cutters cut really great circles, but circle cutters don't cut really great circles in the exact spot u want them to cut. so basically i made crop marks for the circles and those were printed on the pages. then i took a ruler and made a box around where the circle should be. i got the circle cutter so that it would cut the right size circle. then stuck the tip of the blade on a mark i made halfway btwn one of the sides of the bounding box. hoped and prayed i liked the cutter up straight and just cut. most of my circles turned out alright. so that part was done. i took the pages to class yesterday and the teacher nit-picked but i wasn't going to reprint because it would probably cost another $20 and i had already paid nearly $60. so the next step was getting the stickers off the records since i couldn't have random ass bands on my records. but i couldn't get the stickers off. so i had to make my own. this part wasn't too bad. i just got some stuff printed. cut it into a circle the right size. spray mounted it on the record and used my xacto to cut the inner circle out. not too bad. the hard part came today. and this is the nightmare.

so cory was gonna help me bind the book. we got out of class and went to the printshop to get his work only to find it fucked up and he had to reprint. so we had to rush. we went to home depot to get the rivet for my book. 1/8" then went to his place to drill the hole and place the rivet. so all went well. lined up the pages and the records. clamped it down. he did a test on a record. drilled fine. so he drilled a hole in my stuff and put the rivet in. only the pages didn't turn too well. it was a little tight. so he thought we should go with a 3/16" rivet. and this was the big mistake. he re-drilled and did whatever. i wasn't looking. but all i heard was drill noises followed by hammer noises followed by "uh oh." the record had cracked. then the pages ripped. then the other record cracked. OH SHIT!!! that's my whole book right there. so in the end we got it to salvage. the rips on the pages were minimal and are concealed by the new 1/8" rivet in place. i had to use a red record i bought for the top cover and removed the "stickers" i had placed on the other cracked record. the back record has a crack but i think it will hold up for a day. the crack is small and the rivet is in place tightly. i put a little super glue on the crack. i hope it works. i hope and pray. i still haven't made the slip cover for the book. like a record jacket. but i got it printed so i just have to cut and glue. should be fine. i hope...

i know others in the class had trouble with their books. people were calling me telling about their problems. i ran into one guy at the print shop today and he was stressed cuz he couldn't get it printed. all sorts of crap. so we are all just waiting for tomorrow to be over so we can rest easy. it'll all be over at 11:20am. maybe even earlier if we finish quickly. i can't wait.

but i still have to work on this media kit for my internship. if u've seen almost famous then u know the scene towards the end where william is at rolling stone and he's trying to think of what to write in his big story. he sits at the typewriter in agony. he looks through all his photos but he can't think of what to write. well that's me right now. staring at the blank screen not knowing what to do with this media kit. i'm burnt out. i need a break. ie, hong kong and bali. WOO!!! and tomorrow me and jessica are going to a screening of a dirty shame followed by the after party at this place in beverly hills where there will be a full open bar. my internship is sponsoring this and i was invited. should be interesting.

the package was indeed my muji stuff. yay! it FINALLY arrived. the clock/alarm i bought is really cool. or at least i think so. it's a see-thru LCD.

now if only the refills i bought for my muji pens were the right ones!!! i'll never find them i swear. maybe in hong kong. i plan on making a trip to the muji store there. i don't plan on buying much on this trip. aside from the necessary trinket purchases for friends and family, i really only *plan* to buy some muji stuff and a watch for my dad. *maybe* a watch for myself. if i see cool things of course i'll purchase them but those are really the only things i intend to buy right off the bat. anyway, i digress....

my type homework is done. so that final is taken care of. woo! now i just have finish up this style guide and i'm golden. i was talking to this one guy at the office just before i left. we were the only two left. as usual it seems. i was telling him about my circle book and what a pain in the ass it has been. and he said that he would pay to get a die cut made for my book. too bad i already cut the pages! oh man. that would have been a lifesaver. oh well. nice thought.

this morning has been going all wrong. i had my sights set on getting so much accomplished but the world is against me today and things aren't as planned. nothing major just the little things. but it's the little things that make life work out right. the only redemption is i got a package slip today from the mailman so i'm crossing my fingers that it's my muji stuff i ordered oh so long ago. i thought it got lost in the mail. so hopefully this package is it!

me and jessica are so ready to start this vacation. we went out and bought the last minute items we needed and now we are basically set. barring getting the crisp new big face $100 bills, we are G to the muthafuckin G. i can't wait to start packing!!! tonight we are watching chungking express with adam. this time i won't fall asleep! he'll be here soon to get me and then we shall go to jessica's place and watch it. this will get us in the mood indeed. oh i can't wait!! just a few more days. just a few more...

oh yes. and this is my new current desktop in honor of mr. law's deluge of films this fall season. him and his best mate. or one of them. scrumptious. scrumptious indeed!

so i had a headache earlier and i laid down to close my eyes for a bit and now it's 1:30am. good lord! me and jessica were supposed to watch chungking express but obviously this didn't happen because of me. i'm sorry jessica! during my nap i had some weird dreams. one ended in a bug bursting out of a child's shoulder. it was the grossest thing ever. eeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww! i also had a dream about dan. probably because i just had dinner with him the other night. i don't really recall what happened in the dream except that we were in a room full of people and he picked me up really high and i was hugging him in the air and the room spun around. or maybe we spun in the room? not sure. it was a weird surreal movie type moment.

so i was driving along today and something happened on the road that seems to be happening more frequently and i am really fucking annoyed by it. this is when there is a back up of traffic and some fucking dumbass mutherfucka goes down the middle divider lane and jumps in ahead of the line! today i was in the turn lane and this punkass guy fucking comes up the side on the other side of the road and wants to jump in the left turn lane. and he gives me this fucking look like, "come on man? let a brotha in." how could i not let him in when his car is like in my fucking way? so of course he gets ahead of me and fucking makes the light and i don't. fucking pisses me off. fucking bullshit! anyway, the weekend is here. my workload is winding down. thankfully. i got my shit printed for my amoeba standards manual and all but two sheets look really good. but two printed weirdly and i'm not sure what to do about it. so i'll be combating this problem tonight.

i have so much fucking energy it's unbelievable. even tho i still feel a bit ill i have all this energy. i don't know why. the apprentice got me all riled up! and jude law was just in jay leno and that was lovely. paul bettany who was in wimbledon is gonna be on conan soon. kyla just emailed me saying that i am the first girl that dan from sf has shown any interest in in the two years matt has known him. i think this is a mistake personally as i got no vibe whatsoever. but whatever. it's all a moot point regardless of what's the truth. i somehow didn't copy the pictures i need to do my work so now i gotta go to school early. gah!

oh....my....god!!! the apprentice. donald fired the guy!!! he should NOT have fired the guy!!! he was good. this is fucking bullshit. i'm so pissed. basically the rules are like this. the project manager of the winning team is exempt if they go into the boardroom the next week. so basically bradford was exempt because the team won last week. so they all went into the room and he was confident in his abilities and impulsively said "i will forfeit my exemption." well the donald thought that was a stupid move and fucking fired his ass. which is utter bullshit because he totally shouldn't have been fired. and now he's kicking himself for doing that and ivanna is upset at herself for even bringing him back into the boardroom. she totally shouldn't have because she knows him her heart she should have been fired and NOT bradford. omg i'm so pissed. i'm taking this personally i swear. it's crazy. i can't get over it. i hopped right online to talk to emily about it because i know she watched it. goddamn i can't get over how donald fired that guy. poor guy. ugh!!! i'm so angry. and it's a fucking tv show. but it's real so that's why. i know this affects people's lives! ugh. it's all ratings i just know it. what more can they do to get people riled up about the show? u know? fucking hell!

the work is getting done slowly but surely. the pages of my book that have to make are going to be ready tomorrow. then i have to cut and assemble the damned thing. i also finished the work i was doing for a record label through my internship. apparently our office sometimes does design work for the label. i got $500 for this job. not too shabby. wasn't hard work. just took awhile for things to render since it was these really huge banners for a trade show. like 8 ft tall. so the files were huge. anyway, it's done now so that's good. also had dinner with dan last nite. good times. we got sushi and crepes down in santa monica. nice and relaxing. good to see we are good terms again. i am also getting my shit in gear for the trip. all of this while i'm sick! fuckin hell. i get sick easily these days since i don't sleep enough. it sucks. u know how when u cough and u can't stop because it's that horrible dry cough? yea i had that today. it sucked. i just have to get better before we leave next week. oh and my new nickname from one of the guys in the office is "jenius." haha

i just got back from yet another advanced screening. also with a hot 30 something yr old british man. this time paul bettany. husband of jennifer connelly. the movie was wimbledon, also starring kirsten dunst. it was good for what it was. a british romantic comedy focused around tennis. woo! i love tennis. and i'm obsessed with going to wimbledon one day. so it was a good movie on that basis. the people who made notting hill and all those other british movies made this one. so i knew what i was in for. good stuff. gotta take advantage of these free movies. it's great. i was supposed to have dinner with will but we are rescheduling due to conflicts, namely this movie.

i went to REI today to get bug repellant. 98% DEET! strong shit. i can't wait. one week!!! since REI is close to where OCD boy lives we had lunch together. he brought his roommate who i've met before and, must admit, don't really like. he seems very, pardon me, neanderthal-ish. he's got his bump on his head and he barely speaks. and he isn't very friendly, at least to me. he drinks a lot and gets into stupid fights with people apparently. and he likes really really young chicks. i dunno. he bothers me.

anyway, i'm feeling a bit sick right now. i think it's stress and lack of sleep coupled with being around sick people in the office. oh well. i gotta make sure i'm well before we leave. can't be sick!!

ok so i don't know how to put this, but how the fuck do u avoid giving out your phone number? because i always feel bad so i give it out and then these boys call me and want to "hang out." i'm not talking random strangers at bars or whatever because i have no qualms saying no to those folks. but i'm talking like boys at school. tonight this guy david called me and i totally didn't even know who it was cuz i don't have his number. and he's from school. he's this guy i met from the president's club, just like the 30-something yr old and the ian guy who i shared mushies with. much like the old dude, i'm not really interested in hanging out. yet here he is calling. oh what to do. i said i was busy til after break. so we shall see how that goes. we have a meeting this coming wednesday and i'm going to see all these folks. oh what to do. of course ian won't be there cuz he's graduating so he doesn't give a fuck and he's the only one i'd actually want to see cuz he's cool. oh whatever. i'll figure something out.

on another note, i got a call from an unknown number that turned out to be none other than jason!! =) he's back in america and he phoned me. oh dear sweet jason. i've missed him. i hope he comes down to LA to visit soon. he sounds like he's doing well and that's great. he's excited to start his new life in SF now. i'm excited for him. we had a lovely chat.

i had a dream about not being ready for bali last nite. the dream simply consisted of me freaking out about not having packed and we had to get on the plane in like 2 hours! sounds like something i would freak out again. luckily i don't pack quite that last minute. i can't wait to go away. it's so soon i can taste it!! i've got nearly all the stuff i need to go. just a few more odds and ends.

i can't stop listening to the new interpol cd. it's not out yet but i burned a copy from the office. god it's so good. i really love it. and it's more upbeat than the other album. they sing about love. and not always love lost. but actually being in love! way to go my beautiful black tie affair men. haha me and jessica are gonna go see them in october. i wonder if we'll get free tickets at the office. i didn't see it on the calendar so methinks we won't. here are the lyrics to one of my fave songs off the album.

public pervert
- interpol

so swoon baby starry nights
may our bodies remain
as weak we move, i'll feed you light, baby
may our bodies remain
oh yeah in history, i'll treat you right, baby
i'm honest that way, hey
swoon baby starry nights
may our bodies remain

i just read the la times article about how jude law is in 6 movies that come out btwn now and the end of the year!! it's insane. i don't want to see all 6 but still. goddamn the man. he's hot and he's plastered all over the theaters now. crazy shit.

last nite we all went to bang! it was an insane amount of people, all of which i didn't know and didn't arrive at the same time. of the ones i knew there was jessica, rick, adam, brian, gino, gino's friend josh who i see at all the parties, devin's friend joe who i call "joe guy" in my phone, joe's friend guierrmo (can't spell that name!) who i met at the last bang outting, samira, jenoplous, stacey, chris who used to be rick's boss, and matt, carrie, and vincent from school. then a bunch of other respective friends of friends. so it was a massive amount of people. never all together at one time since that was impossible. i didn't eat dinner because i forgot and so i drank too much considering the empty stomach. i had like i think 4 maybe 5 shots of stoli vanilla and by the time things got rolling in the club, so did my stomach. i didn't know what to do tho because i tried puking but i couldn't. but i felt shitty and i didn't wanna bring the crowd down. so then i finally made myself puke and it was all just liquid. then i felt better. which was good cuz it was only like 11:30. i danced the rest of the night away despite my feet hurting a lot. but then at the end of the night my stomach was totally empty except for the water and i felt sick again. i didn't puke but i needed to just pass out. so that's exactly what i did once i got home. there was a bit of a snafu with the car situation but it worked itself out nicely. it just took extra time which sucked for all involved since we were all tired. so yea. good nite all in all but it's definitely better to go to bang! with less people. more intimate group. and i am also going 3 for 3 on the puking each weekend. will this stop next weekend? i sure hope so.

ben was a prick and showed up 45 minutes late to the roost. by then adam had left. so now adam still wants to go out so he and i are going to barneys to get some beers and play some pinball. goddamn LA. that's probably like the only bar in LA that has pinball. in SF tons of bars have pinball. sheesh!

instead of going out tonight i just made an assload of phone calls to people and now i have two dinners set up for next week -- dan and will. only because dan is back home this weekend so he can't have dinner with me tonight and will already ate dinner so he proposed next week. goddamn that boy. the bane of my existance. not really but let's be melodramatic for 2 seconds shall we? adam was at work so he couldn't have dinner and i called his house and ben answered. ben knew it was me and told adam who then called me back from work. no wonder ben wasn't nice on the phone. oh wait, ben's never nice. i forgot... adam and ben are going to the roost tonight and so now i am disinvited because me and ben can't really be around each other for that long. rick is with jessica cuz she got her laser eye surgery today. so they are out of the loop. brian and crew are already at the well drinking cuz they tend to do that regularly for happy hour or whatever. i've never been invited to that venture. i was just with noah and i know he's broke so i didn't want to ask him to go to dinner. especially since i asked him to go out tomorrow and he said he'd try to make it so i'd rather see him dancing and drunk than try and force dinner on him. josh isn't answering his phone which leads me to believe he's at work. now my phone is totallly dead so no more phone calls. not to mention i've totally lost interest in leaving the house at this point. so sad. i guess i'll just do homework.

noah and i just got back from the sprint store where i was switching my phone number over to my new phone and he was starting new service. it was a hilarious time there and fun chatting with the man who helped us. he thought we were dating by the way we interacted. if only he knew the story. haha anyway, we both get service credits since it was a referral thing. good stuff. oh noah. *sigh*

i just realized that 3 of my 4 must see movies for this fall have jude law in them! i already saw alfie so i can cross that one off. but there is still i heart huckabees, closer, and saw. the last of which does not have mr. law himself. but the rest do. and goddamn will they be good. at least i hope. oh wait. damnit. there is one more. ocean's 12. that also doesn't have jude law. well whatever. the point is that there are a lot of movies with him coming out now and it's crazy good.

jessica got advanced screening passes to see the remake of the film alfie last nite. the movie itself is alright. story is just ok. the editing and cinematography were nice in my opinion. some nice montage seqquences. but overall it was just an ok movie. HOWEVER, jude law is utterly gorgeous in this film. i mean usually i think he's just an attractive guy. but oh my fucking god he looks so hot in this movie. it's the clothes they've got him wearing. the way he looks at the camera to give his monologues. everything. so hot. so for that, i would recommend it. if u wanna see an ok movie and drool over mr. law, check out this film. otherwise i'd pass. the original starred michael caine as alfie and i never saw it. but i'm sure women were swooning then just as i am swooning now over this remake.

the extended forecast for LA:

wed: 90/68
thu: 89/69
fri: 90/67
sat: 88/68
sun: 87/64

oh fuckin hell. shoot me now.

i can't seem to get my work done cuz i'm too distracted. bad jen. bad!! i have to much energy right now which is totally ass backwards.

i was gonna wait til ky gave me the rest of her photos from sake night but i couldn't any longer. so here is a nice smattering from the weekend. not really in order. but that's ok.

top: random dog i saw at albertsons. i thought he was so cute so i snapped 3 photos. could never really get him to look at me long enough to snap the photo. damnit! me cleaning eric's kitchen....sorta. we put the goggles on me just for the photo. what a goofball i can be.

next: dan and eric behind the heeps of food we had for dinner. damn good shit right there. we had leftovers but no one wanted to carry them around.

next: kyla as usual, avoiding my camera! but i liked the way this came out. nice soft mood lighting. so ha! =)

next: eric looking really tired as he was. poor thing.

bottom: dan playing some shooting game at this bar we went to. we all thought it was hilarious that he looked so into it in this photo. i mean look at that positioning with the gun. too much. haha

god it's so fucking hot. i can't take this bullshit. when is the coolness ever going to come? why the fuck don't we have air conditioning???

homework...gah!!!

omg. it's so fucking hot here!!! i saw a photo on the front page of the newspaper that showed santa monica beach. what a fucking nightmare. thousands of people. umbrellas. everything. it looked like the main stage of coachella except in speedos. that would have been horrific. i hate huge crowds.

i just woke up from a nap and it's hard to motivate myself to work on the million things i have to work on. last nite i fell asleep and woke up and fell asleep and in the end i pulled the work out of my ass and got it done at the last second. but man am i still tired. something has to give. just not sure what yet.

ugh! i can hear sex in the other room. sheesh. why can't *i* be the one having sex now? oh right. cuz i don't have anyone to potentially fuck and i have homework. yea that's right. i'm lame.

back in LA. =( about to start the homework. gotta finish my typeface and do layouts. something tells me it won't be happening. i dunno. bah. i always hate leaving SF. at the end of last nite i actually got a little depressed. just thinking about leaving. and today too. that's over now cuz i gotta get my ass in gear with this shit i have to do. i'll evaluate my whole SF thing later.

last nite was fun altho not as fun as i would have liked. me, ky, eric, and dan were gonnag eat this awesome senagalese restaurant in the mission but then we got there only to find all the lights out and the closed sign up! we were all devastated. so we wandered around and settled on this thai place that had really nice ambiance. the wait was a bit long but the food was really good and we had a good time. or at least i did. i dunno about the boys. me and ky were digging the din din. the roasted duck curry was by far the winner of our shared plates. then we went bar hopping. hopping only because we couldn't settle on a good enough spot and also cuz it was so hot. this weekend apparently it was 100+ in LA and in SF it was a surprising 90 consistently! so we were roasting in the bars. lawrence met up with us eventually and we continued our wandering with him. then in the end we found eric's roommate matt and his friends at this other bar. it was good times except that eric and dan were party poopers with their lack of energy for the night. so sad. i tried to get them excited but to no avail. the night ended with dan taking me to ky's to get my stuff and then taking me home since she stayed at eric's. a bit awkward of moment but fine in the end. ky was hoping that me and dan would hook up during the course of the weekend but no such luck for her. i knew that wouldn't happen cuz i know dan isn't interested. i can tell. but she was crossing her fingers anyway. haha

today she and i just sorta wandered around downtown. both of us were pretty beat. rick was supposed to pick me up from the ontario airport but he got food poisoning or something so i made a last minute scramble to find someone else and that someone else was good ole adam. everyone else was like "well....i don't really want to. but if i must because no one else will, then i'll come get you." whereas adam was like, "sure jen. i don't want you to get fucked over and be stranded. i'll definitely come get you." so props to adam for being there for me. =)

now it's time to do the nasty ass homework. =( i'm so tired right now. the bed looks sooooo comfy. =(

poor dan. me capturing ky capturing dan. haha ky got right up in his face with that shit. probably because she thought she needed to get a photo of him for me. but still. he looks weirded out. in fact i just talked to him about last night and he thought i was drunk before he even got there. but that wasn't true. i think me and ky are just too much for him to handle. too loud and in your face. poor dan.

i really need to fuck somebody right now...

i just watched cruel intentions. u get the idea. i'm at eric's right now. woke up around 9 with a bloody hangover from last nite. the sake went a little *too* well. fuckin mess as usual. the kitchen smells horrible. most of last nite is a blur except a few random tidbits. overall it was fun even if i did puke. it's sorta weird to be here right now and not have my car where i can just hop on home. usually that's the case. and usually kyla isn't here. but now all has changed. it's good. but admitedly, a little weird. i got to see lydia and emily last nite. mel and matt came but seemed to have left early. sad sad. altho i could be wrong about that because i was SOOOO out of it i don't really remember much. i remember dan being cute and not actually really talking to him. figures. i also remember talking to danielle who is matt's (ex) gf. i really like her. she's quite nice. i'm glad she came last nite. i don't know where my camera is but i hope it's in ky's bag. i also hope i took more than 3 pictures. but somehow i doubt it. there are these two people in the living room with me that i remember vaguely from last nite but don't know who they are. one of them put the movie on this morning. god i really wanna fuck someone right now. haha

today we are gonna go out again i think and lawrence is coming into town so hopefully he can meet up with us. we were supposed to leave the house last nite after sake and wander the mission aimlessly but we didn't. well...i can't actually make that statement. maybe we did. i don't think i did. maybe the rest did. last nite is a HUGE HUGE blur. and i mean HUGE.

i work too much. i really need to relax. and i really need a bf. i'm caving to my old ways right now. i think all this detachment from myself with my work is not good. i focus so much on the end product and i don't even think about myself anymore. if i did, i wouldn't let myself sleep in weird patterns. catch small colds because of exhaustion. etc etc. maybe this weekend will help me step back and think about myself and how i gotta put #1 first and foremost. alright. enough of this self-rightous bullshit. u know i'll just go back to my ways when i return to LA. i got a fortune cookie last nite and the fortune said: now is the time to try something new. maybe that means moving back to SF? maybe that means working less? maybe that means fucking a stranger? haha i have no idea. but i'm getting off this box right now.

quick post. waiting for ky to get out of the shower so we can get all fro-ed up for the sake tonight! today has been so on the go. but it's great. we met up with dan (eric's friend that i think is cute) in j-town to get the sake and other assorted treats. i thought maybe i wouldn't even find him cute but no, i was wrong. he's so damned cute. even ky sees it. oh dan. he's just got the little sparkle or something. anyway, we picked up eric from SFO and he was being his cute little eric-self. haha we were the bosses in that car ride. me and ky that is. oh yea. haha oh and last nite we saw this cute little guy at this bar and he was all dancing with his white man's fro and we were looking at him being all hot. and then he came over to get his shit to leave and he had his shades on. he looked at us and pulled down the shades and gave us some googley eyes and that was that. good fuckin times. oh sake soon!! woohoo. tonight is gonna fuckin ROCK!

going home in a couple hours. noah is taking me since the whole dan drama and all. i'm in such a rush!!! cory (aka OCD boy) is flying southwest at the exact same time as me. so we are gonna me at the airport. good times. gotta get ready to go. planning the rest of the night. what a mess! no time to write more. back in LA on monday!

i went to the party at my internship tonight. it was fun. met a lot of the interns i hadn't formally met before. nice folks. one former intern was there and she left with one of the guys that works there. uh huh ;) we all speculate. there was also a former employee there who looks like one of the owners. it's uncanny. so funny. he's cute too. chris was there looking hip. i think he was with his gf. dagnabit. haha one of the interns that i met lives down the street from there and he's cute-ish. i will talk to him more now that i have met him. anyway, it's 11 already and i've got a lot to do. =( i may pull another awkward sleep pattern and take a nap. we shall see.

man o man did i need that sleep. i have been running on less than empty recently. i was so fucking tired yesterday i swore i could have fallen asleep anywhere anytime. at my internship we are doing a promotion for the new ren & stimpy dvd and so we got the style guide in the office and i had to use it to make some promo items. i was all excited just cuz we are making style guides in my branding class and here i got to actually use one! yea that's not much excitement for ya, but for a nerd like me it is. haha so that promo stuff is like half done. i ended up leaving the office just before 8pm with the last two remaining people there. we got all this free beer for this party they are throwing tonight so we each took a case home. and the owner drove me because the case was too much to carry for me. today we are supposed to be getting in some materials to make some trade show booth poster things or something for a record label and apparently there's money in this project for me! yay! i gotta crank out some homework too before i leave for SF tomorrow. gah!!

the "blind" date went fine. he's a nice guy overall. not my type physically and other than that he's just alright. not stellar. and like i said before, stellar is the only way that u'll be able to steal away my precious free time. so whatever. time to get some work done now!

words cannot describe how tired i am.

more to come about the rest of my hectic life....after the "blind" date.