today is a sad day for i had to throw away my beloved escalator. some of u may remember her. dan helped me build the model for my concept class. the perception of salsa. one of her legs broke the other day so i thought it was time to rid of her. so sad. goodbye escalator...

this weekend has been relaxing. didn't really do that much per se. friday night i had din din with andrew and then fell asleep. saturday morning he left for japan and i had a breakdown. it was weird. i got really sad all of a sudden and started crying. all the other times he's left i was fine. but this time it got to me. so he had to see me all teary-eyed. so sad. after that i went home and got ready for rick's sisters' wedding. that was fun. the wedding was small and light-hearted at a church her husband used to go to growing up in LA. the reception was in malibu and went on for like 6 hours. lots of dancing. fun fun. dwayne came and he was the talk of the town. so loud and crazy. i think some of rick's fam was like "who is this guy??" good stuff. after that ended i came home and went to bed. today i went to target, helped out ollie after his hernia surgery, watched primer which was crazy weird and hard to follow (damn those time travel movies!!!) and went to urban outfitters where i got a skirt that was on sale for $19.99 originally $78. good deal! talked with andrew via the internet for a few minutes and that's about it. so all in all the weekend didn't really involve any group socializing events as usual. but it was nice anyway. talked with stacey who didn't really do much either. it was "me" weekends for us it seemed. good stuff.

fuckin eh. i absolutely HATE when people honk their horns at you because you didn't go the exact second the light turns green. it's like they expect u to read minds. predict when it will turn green and release the gas a mili-second before it does so that when it does your wheels are in motion. i FUCKING HATE those people. why do i bring this up? because someone honked at me today...of course. but let me recount the incident as it was not your ordinary honk-the-moment-it-turns-green-honk.

so i'm waiting to turn right and i see a man standing on the corner of the street. so the moment it turns green i look to the man to see if he's going to cross the street because if he is i shouldn't go or else i'll run him over. so as i look ther fuckhole behind me honks at me....of course. i was pissed because i hate when people do that on regular light situations and for this instance the person behind he clearly has no courtesy and would nearly run someone over for the sake of going that half second sooner. so after i hear the honk i think "you motherfucking cocksucker. don't honk at me!" but as i'm thinking this, the man who was standing on the sidewalk and isn't crossing the street looks in my window (which is rolled down) and laughs at me. straight up fucking laughs at me and says "you better hurry up!!!" you motherfucking prick. i was waiting so i wouldn't run your ass over if u started to cross the street. omg. i wanted to scream at both him and the person behind me. times like these i wish i was 6'7" and 300 pounds. i'd put my car in park, get out of it, and yell at both of them for being fucking assholes. oh yea baby. just as i write this post i am hearing a blaringly loud horn being honked for at least 10 seconds straight. god i love LA....

so i played hookey from work today. i have 1 or 2 sick days on hand that i won't get any money from if i don't use them since i'm quitting. so i figured i better use at least one. so i did. today. i'm sure the whole office knows why i wasn't there and that i wasn't really sick. but fuck it. i gotta do that i gotta do. that's money down the drain if i don't do it. it was awesome waking up later too. normally i wake up really fucking early and see andrew sorta moan and not fully realize i am leaving for work. but today he left before i fully woke up. although because i wake up so early normally, and i had to call to say i was sick, i woke up really early anyway. but still. not at 5:45 like usual.

lawrence and i went to see the island today. we both liked it surprisingly. we expected good chase scenes and whatnot but it was pretty good overall. the story was decent. i'd recommend it.

the rest of this past week has been spent doing finishing up some freelance stuff and battling the heat. andrew leaves tomorrow for japan...again. he'll be there a week. then he comes back for a day. then he's off to germany. then NYC. i can't wait for NYC.

i'm kind of upset right now. i just found out that andrew will for sure have to meet me in NYC because he has to fly straight from germany. i didn't think it'd be that bad but he won't get in til like 9pm friday night. and i get in at like 7am friday morning. so what's 14 hours? well considering we leave late afternoon on sunday it is a big deal. cuz i spent over $300 to fly out there and he's not gonna be with me for like a 3rd of this trip. so i'm sort of upset. i don't wanna tell him i'm upset cuz there's not much he can do about it but it fucking sucks. plain and simple. i mean basically he leaves this sunday i think and except for like half a day when he returns btwn japan and germany, i won't see him til i get to NYC. so that sucks too.

beck was fucking awesome! he's so adorable on stage. and his band members were cute too. this one guy was like the resident dancer up there. he would be busting moves in funky costumes all night. first a tennis outfit ala the royal tenenbaums and then some sort of schoolboy/waiter getup. good shit. beck played a whole portion of the show acoustically which was great. got in some "sea change" songs. meanwhile his band members sat down at a table on stage and ate some food. then provided background sounds with their silverware tapping against glasses and whatnot. that was awesome. jessica and i finally got to see a proper beck show and we were quite satisfied with what we got. woowee!

i think i'm gonna call in sick tomorrow. i've got like 2 sick days and i think i lose them if i don't use them. so i'm gonna use 1 for sure. and i figure tomorrow is a good day. i've got shit to work on so why the hell not. make it a long weekend!

wacom tablet has arrived!!! using it right now. it's awesome.

tonight is BECK!!!! fuck yea. i can't wait. waiting for jessica to come get me so we can goooooo......... woowee

this week has been so exhausting at work. so much so that i fell asleep at like 10pm last nite when i should have been out at bars. i went to dinner at this vegan chinese restaurant (interesting indeed) and when we got back to his place i totally konked out while waiting for people to call me. goodness gracious! oh well. c'est la vie. i've been working overtime for like 2 weeks now. and a lot in the past few days with all the developments at work. not to mention dealing with getting the new job. being stressed about it all. it's just made me tired. and i have a slew of freelance work to do too! good lord. tomorrow is work day. all day. altho andrew got us tickets to go see mos def at the hollywood bowl along with some of his friends. and so i think i wanna go just for the experience cuz i like the bowl. and the seats are much closer than where i've sat for the shows so far this summer. so that would be way cool. anyway, BECK here we come!!! =)

bah. i just realized i can't talk my silkscreening class anymore!! it's from 5-10pm on mondays at SMC but i'll be at work. BOO. i just dropped it today online. how crappy. goddamn work. always getting in the way of life.

according to the ups website, my wacom tablet should be coming tomorrow! woo!! i have been using cindy's old one at work since she was let go and i love it. helps prevent carpel tunnel. now i gotta work on chair positioning vs. monitor height vs. keyboard/tablet placement. cuz i've got a case of "mouse shoulder" as it's called. could lead to tendonitis or something. yikes!

welp, it's over. thank fucking god. all the stress that lead to my potential ulcer is gone. i told them i'm leaving. said i'm sorry and feel bad. worked 2 hours of overtime, and here we are. they were cool with it. or at least my boss was. he said he was. i know he's thinking "fuck!" he even said that if it was a matter of money they could probably give me more. the CEO likes me and she'd probably be willing to do that. it's always that way isn't it? leave and get more money! anyway, the two weeks notice is in. i leave august 5th. i start my new job august 8th. august 12th i jetset off to NYC where andrew WON'T be flying with me!!! =( he's going to be in japan the first week of august. then fly directly to germany. then fly directly to NYC. he probably won't arrive til sometime on friday so i'll have to plan the long-awaited and anticipated H&M trip wiuth jessica and stacey that day while he's not around. god i can't wait for that trip. i need a break altho i'm sad that andrew won't be flying with me. good grief. those damn people he works for. fucking everything up!

i think i'm gonna have a motherfucking ulcer. so i got the job offer today in writing. it came in the afternoon. i was pretty sure that's what was going to happen. so i went to work today knowing that tomorrow i'd have to tell them i'm leaving. and i felt bad just walking into the office and being handed a key (finally!) knowing that i'm going to have to return that key soon. so i went to my desk and checked my emails as usual and there was one from my boss saying the art dept needed to have a meeting at 9am. only one of the 4 of us wasn't cc'd. i starting thinking...then my boss came in and told me the news. the one who wasn't cc'd was let go yesterday afternoon and that's the reason for the meeting. i felt like shit. cuz i know it's super crunch time. we've got major deadlines coming up and we are one man down...soon to be two! i of course couldn't say anything because my offer hadn't come in writing. but for the rest of the day i felt like shit. i just know that when i tell them tomorrow they are gonna be panicking. and they will also probably wonder why i didn't tell them sooner. i intend to explain myself very professionally and whatnot. explain that i didn't get the offer just yet so i couldn't say anything but feel really bad. i'll offer to do overtime for the next two weeks if need be while they frantically look to replace two people. i'll do what i can to help. but ultimately i'll be leaving in two weeks. god i feel bad about it all. it's super poor timing. but it's not my fault! so in reality i shouldn't feel bad. but it's human nature. i just hope that rather than be upset with me (which they shouldn't), they will be grateful that i am giving them two weeks notice and that i am willing to work really hard in those two weeks so that when i leave they won't be totally fucked.

anyway, such is life right? they employed me "at will" which means they can hire and fire at will without any reason. and at the same token i can leave for any reason. i've seen two people let go while working there and both weren't given any notice. no two weeks. just pack up and go. and i could do the same to them but i won't because i'm going to be very professional about it. i just hope these next two weeks aren't awkward! i'm sure they will be though...

but onto the good news. my new job! it pays just a tad bit more altho it's salary which means in the end i'll be making less money per hour i'm sure. but it seems super creative which is good cuz i've been stagnant for awhile in the creativity dept recently. so i'm excited about this. and i just read the offer. apparently this company provides daily lunches (and i think dinner if u stay late cuz i saw the office ordering dinner both times i was there) and bi-weekly massages! this is either awesome or it means i'm gonna work so much and be so stressed i'll need these massages badly. we shall see. i start august 8th. i can't wait! now if only this fucking heat would go away. it's murderous!!

in the midst of all the job chaos i forgot to mention...one of the plumbers installing the toilets, sinks, etc in our new building asked me out yesterday! oh man was that awkward. i didn't know what to say initially. not used to actually having a boyfriend so that i can legitimately say "sorry i have a boyfriend." i spoke with this guy a couple times before but yesterday was when he popped the question and it was in the middle of the hallway at work. so awkward. good lord.

so i went to the interview yesterday and left totally unsure of myself. i thought it went well yet it ended so awkwardly. so i didn't know what to think. but i did run into all of the people i had met the first time i was there and they were friendly to me and said hi and all that jazz. so that was comforting. then today i got the call from the agency that set the job up for me saying i got the job! so i'm gonna take it. i should get the offer letter tomorrow hopefully. i'm scared to tell my current job that i'm leaving but in the end it's for the best i think. cuz this new job is a LOT more creative it seems. i mean u see a project out from start to finish. from script to poster and everything in btwn. so it should be much more stimulating. and it's not so early. 9am start time i do believe. salary though so no overtime but surely i'll be working late. but that's ok. i'm excited! oh and for anyone who wants to know the company, i'll tell them in person cuz i can't write such things online. they are pretty big and their website has all their old/current work and it's some very big name, recognizable stuff.

i was super tired this morning but then i drank 2 cups of coffee and i'm good to go!

let's recap the weekend shall we. i wish i could write daily like i used to but it's hard when u don't have a computer at the boy's house AND wouldn't want to blog anyway cuz then the url is stored in the cache and whatnot. and i'll be damned if i have to delete it every time.

so friday he came home and we went on our lovely little date. tapas at this place near the grove which was awesome. really tasty. i started to get tipsy at the place cuz we got wine with our meal. after that we watched an episode of seinfeld before going to see wedding crashers which was a hilarious movie. i love vince vaughn. and i love little surprises too.

saturday was spent getting things for andrew's apt. we were at ikea for like 3 and a half hours! crazy. at night we met up with the group for lauren's bday at the cozy inn. no shuffleboard for me this time.

yesterday was a pseudo-workday in the afternoon and then the hollywood bowl at night. royksopp and basement jaxx. both were good in different ways. i really like royksopp's music but basement jaxx are funky onstage.

i guess that's the weekend. nothing too spectacular. now i'm on lunch at work. this afternoon i go back for my second interview at that place. i was supposed to go last week but it fell through cuz the guy wasn't back. so i'm going today. we'll see what happens!

my new fave photo of myself! look at my big head and my even bigger hair! haha so precious. little chinese baby...

today i totally crashed out. after work i totally took like a 3 hour nap. it wasn't supposed to be that way but that's how it turned out. i was so fucking tired. working late every sucks. i think it sucks more because i start work so early. if i started work later and ended work later it wouldn't take such a toll. but then i come home and do my freelance work and then get like 5 hours of sleep an repeat. oh well. my second interview was cancelled today cuz the dude wasn't in the office. so i'll go tomorrow. we'll see how it goes.

i found out today that birth control is freakin expensive! i don't have proper full coverage insurance right now cuz my old stuff expired when i turned 24 and my parents bought me some interim stuff. i've been using the free sample pills my doc gave me but those ran out. so i went to get some today and they don't make the kind i use in generic brand so i had to pay full price. $44!!! no wonder so many people are having unwanted babies. shit. that stuff is pricey. i mean $44 is no match to paying for a child but still.

anyway, gotta get my work done.

i just talked to andrew! well sorta. using skype. except i couldn't talk cuz the mic on lo's headset/mic thingy didn't work. so i would type back and andrew would talk. sorta weird being the muted one. but it worked overall. and it was cool. i miss the boy. but he comes home friday so that's good. we're gonna get tapas and see wedding crashers. what a lovely date.

i've been super busy these past few days. work has been hectic. we're finally set up in our room which is good. we've been working like mad and i've stayed late every day so far. we have this big deadline approaching so it's manic. plus monday i had din din with ollie in pasadena. it was good to catch up. yesterday i met with the tshirt dude to get more of my tshirts and to also talk about new design ideas. then i went to the pyschic bunny party. then came home and slept. today i went to the old workplace which is in a new space that is cool yet weird. i'm doing some freelance for them so i went to see the new place and talk about the work. but all of a sudden i basically piled all this work onto myself. so i'll have to work on the weekend probably. and i'm skipping ollie's dinner/movie thing tomorrow nite cuz i have to get this shit done! i'm sure tired right now too. i MUST sleep! i can barely keep my eyes open. more later when i can see right.

my little boy is gone again. he left for japan today. (doesn't he look like a little boy in that photo?! a little boy with sideburns...think the reverse charlie brown syndrome...haha) anyway, it's been a relaxing sunday so far. except having to go to LAX. but it wasn't all that early so that was good.

friday night was good. didn't do a whole lot which was good. i was so tired from the week at work that i couldn't do anything too nutty. andrew and i got dinner and then just came home and watched some seinfeld on dvd. he didn't get to sleep in though because in the morning the movers brought his stuff from NY at 7am!!! so he was dealing with that. and his friend matt who lives down the street helped him set up some of the apt. so now it looks decent. i went over there midday to help. lots of boxes are unpacked and i'd say the place will be ready to go and in full swing with about a weekend's worth of effort. ie, going shopping for odds and ends and unpacking the rest of the boxes. it's nice that he finally has his place ready so now he doesn't have to "live" with me. cuz that's nice and all but it's hard sometimes. i need some space to breath and get my work done without worrying that he's bored cuz i'm not paying attention to him.

anyway last night was jessica's party. andrew, matt, and i had dinner first which ran late so then we got to the party late. but it was ok. it wasn't a raging party due to the coppers coming at midnight and telling us to be quiet. they were nice about it though. and jessica loved the gift we got her ($80 @ H&M, $95 @ amoeba). andrew was tired from the lack of sleep so we left around 2 and stayed at his place since it was ready. that was cool. change of scenery. this morning i took him to the airport and now here we are. he'll be back on friday. we're gonna go on a "date." haha how cute. dinner and wedding crashers. fun stuff.

i'm contemplating changing web hosting since mine expires next month i think. gotta figure out what to switch to and then move all the files over. until then i don't wanna set up this photo gallery thing because it'll be double the effort. now that i have my new digicam i snap a lot of random photos so i wanna put them online somewhere.

work has been trying lately. i'm going back to the place i interviewed at last week for a second go at it. probably thursday or friday. we'll see how that goes. also gotta find out from the old workplace whether they made the decision about the AD position. they are also moving offices so they are busy with that crap. and i know what crap it can be.

oh! last nite as andrew and i were leaving the party, sami asked me "do you remember the first time you met andrew?" i said, "yea. the bonfire." thinking of course i remember. it was only like 2 months ago! but then she said "no no." and i said, "oh yea. i heard you brought him to one of my parties. but i don't remember." and she said, "nope. jr year. a party on like 30th street. after the party you asked rick who the cute guy i was with was. and rick told me. and i told you andrew. but you don't remember either." and andrew and i just looked at each other. so i guess i met him ages ago but just don't remember. how funny and random.

i desperately need to sleep. i've been very tired for a little while now. having a bf is draining. takes time. losing sleep... i think part of it is due to the fact that he doesn't have a proper home so he basically lives with me. i realize the value of my own time and space. not that i don't like andrew around. but it's draining at times. i feel very tired. his furniture should arrive from NY soon which will help so he can move into his place. then i think the balance will be restored. the poor thing is super exhausted from travelling and lack of home and whatnot.

last nite i went to this bar down the street called little bar. stacey, rick, me, andrew, ollie, and his gf bekah. she's from back home. i know the story of it all but it's not worth retelling. but it was weird to see him with her. even tho i was with andrew.

yesterday i also went on an interview with this company that makes movie posters. big company. cool company. cool posters. half the ones u see out there are made by them. i left my portfolio with one woman to show another guy. and i showed it to 4 people who all liked it. so that's promising. they are located right across from amoeba. if i worked there that would be lethal!

sorry for the absence. it's been crazy around here. and it's not cuz i have a bf and now therefore have nothing to rant about. such is not the case. it's because it was the 4th of the july weekend AND last week the office moved. and that, my friends, was the most hellish thing EVER!!! 2 days of unpacking things and putting them not where they belong because everything was a chaotic mess. total disarray. working while the painters are painting. and above all, the office isn't done!!! rooms aren't finished. toilets aren't installed. etc etc etc. chaos. today i came to work and things seem calm. everyone is working in their respective places and it feels like a regular office even if it's not ready. me and one other art girl are sharing a cubicle and i swear we are gonna be hitting each other left and right. these cubicles are big but not THAT big! anyway...

the weekend was good. saw batman begins at a midnight showing and fell asleep during it. so sad. i can't say i loved what i saw. it was just alright. i prefer the more comic bookey style. less real. this movie seemed too real. i wasn't that into it. and i was tired.

sunday was TUBING! good times but chaos. we lost joe and 2 of his friends and steph's sister had to be rescued by the ranger! god it was a nightmare. but fun times overall once it was done.

yesterday andrew and i woke up late. i went to brian's BBQ which was fun. then went to andrew's friend's BBQ and watched the rose bowl fireworks from the street. and that was my weekend and last 2 days of work in a nutshell. it's chaos here so i'll just have to write more later.