work is kicking my ass and i think my boss hates me. even though she hired me i think she hates me. i could be wrong. i could be paranoid. but regardless this is how it feels. i haven't written in awhile because kyla came to visit on tuesday and she just left today. so it's been super busy. i haven't had a free moment and right now i'm doing work for...work! yea it never stops. it's sorta killing me. softly. deeply. inside...and out.

highlights of the week include el cholo on wednesday. filter party at the moca on friday followed by drinks at good luck bar. king tut on saturday which was less than expected and entirely too crowded. not to mention poorly curated. didn't make it to sunset junction but took a nap on andrew's couch. went to the pyschic bunny party. slept in late today. had ihop with ky and rick. and off to lax we went. now i'm futzing around trying to not do the work i desperately need to do. i've hit a rut and i can't get out. if i could i'd drop everything and fly to russia right now. i've got the cash but not the time. i wanna start my own business just like this one:

asterik studio

this do EXACTLY what i want to do. and if i lived in seattle i'd try desparately to work there. regardless i want to start my own small design boutique just like that. it would be fuckin perfect and i could dictate my life without answering to others. that would be awesome. fuckin awesome.

exit dreamworld.

back to work.

wow. last nite kicked my ass. i haven't been dancing in so long. dancing AND drinking. good fucking times. we had a huge crew at bang! it was awesome. andrew didn't go of course cuz he's a sourpuss about dancing...probably his biggest flaw...not to mention he left for canada today on an 8am flight. he gets back the same night that kyla comes in so hopefully i can get them both at once.

anyway, i was semi-drunk at bang and danced my ass off with the whole group. consequently i was majorly dehydrated by the end of the night and nearly passed out going to get water. it's a good thing i've passed out before and know what it's like. i walked over to the bar to get water but it was super crowded and i knew i wouldn't make it so i just bolted for a wall to lean against and sit down. took some deep breaths and all was well. then i got my water and downed it. while doing so will found me. cuz i had sent him the email but he didn't say he was coming. and there he was! so for the last few minutes of bang! he was with out group. good stuff. then after bang! a bunch of us went to ihop. good nite indeed.

fuckin eh. the trip was craziness. sorry for the delay but in the post-madness of the trip i had a lot of work to do. as usual. it's the story of my life. a goddamned broken record...

so i missed my plane going there. good work jen. i stayed too late at work trying to finish up crap for deadlines and then i made a mad dash to the airport only to miss my fucking flight!! grrrrr i nearly got hit by a car in the parking lot too...stupid jen. fucking stupid. anyway so i got the next flight out in the morning which meant a hellish night of no sleep really since i had to basically keep waking up to call andrew's mom to ensure she didn't go to the airport to pick me up. after several tries at like 2am (5am NYC time...my flight was to get in at 7am) i finally got a hold of her. she said she would come get me later in the day. soooo nice of her! i got to the airport on time and got on my plane and slept. when i got to NYC i was greeted by good ole humidity. i fucking hate that shit. ruins everything! his mom was there at baggage claim and she took me to her house where andrew and i were gonna be staying. we took a detour to view some of the local supermarkets since i said i hadn't seen any in the city the last time i was in NYC. lucky for us we did that and spent 5 extra minutes getting home because when we parked we ran into andrew's dad who lives down the street from his mom! he said he was picking andrew up from the airport which meant andrew had changed his flight without informing me or his mom! so there was confusion and chaos but it all worked out. i got changed and met up with jessica and stacey at the met and went to H&M for some good ole shopping. didn't do tooooo much damage.

then i went to din din with andrew's mom, dad, and step-mom. a little awkward but nice. they are all nice folks. we had a lovely meal. then me and andrew met up with stacey, jessica, and some of stacey's friends/cousin at a bar. then andrew's friends came and then we moved onto the NYC beauty bar which is not like the one in LA or SF. i quite like it. we stayed there til like 3am! (bars in NYC close at 4am)

the next day i went to breakfast with andrew and his mom. then we met up with jessica and andrew's cousin at moma. that was fun. it was blazingly hot out. after that we went to look for the infamous peanut butter place where they make flavored peanut butters. yum yum! we got some and then went to magnolia which is known for it's famous cupcakes. of course they didn't have the red velvet one i wanted!!! =/ then we got a slice of pizza and cooled down. jessica split off from us and we went home to gather our thoughts before visiting andrew's old art teacher who lives in a sweet ass loft in brooklyn. he's really fuckin rad and we chilled at his place for a couple hours talking and then went to dinner. seriously one of the most enjoyable moments of the trip! he's super cool. dinner was decent but andrew was falling asleep but i wanted to check out this bar modeled after the milk bar in a clockwork orange so we got in a cab and went there. it was really neat but andrew was falling asleep so we left before jessica, stacey and crew got there. they ended up going dancing at some bar. sounded like fun. oh well...

the last day in NYC (or so we thought...) was spent first having brunch with some of andrew's old buddies. they are nice kids. turns out one of them went to school with lydia and used to date her!! small fucking world. brunch was good and then we all just walked around the upper west side. saw their old prep school. it was fun. then we parted ways and andrew took me to the infamous fairway supermarket in harlem where they have the walk in freezer i have been wanting to see! it wasn't all that exciting since it looked just like the rest of the store only colder. but i had to see for myself. it started raining after that but it wasn't too bad. we met up with andrew's friend for some beer before heading off to an early dinner with his parents. it started downpouring and thunderstorming while we were eating which meant our flight was most definitely going to be delayed....and my shoes were going to get SOAKED!!! we got to the airport and our flight was delayed. but little did we know that delta song would just keep dicking us around for hours and hours and hours....

our flight was supposed to leave at 9:40pm. it got delayed to 10:45. then 11:30. then 12:50. and on and on and on. they said that once the rerouted plane came from wash dc (originally coming from LA), they'd clean it and we'd be good to go. well folks. everyone started sleeping the in the airport. they gave us blankets while we waited and andrew and i sorta slept a bit. come 3am they finally announce that the plane arrived but guess what, the flight attendants are too tired to fly. FUCK YOU DELTA SONG. why didn't u just tell us this earlier so we could have booked new flights before all the other airlines' passengers gobbled them up. not to mention we could have gone home to sleep or something. we all became irate and delta song was NOT helpful at all. so inconsiderate. so rude. i am writing a stern letter this weekend demanding compensation. they told us the next flight out was on tuesday. ummm...EXCUSE ME. tuesday?!?! it's sunday. we can't wait til tuesday. we have jobs to get back to. that would just NOT do. so since the people at the airport were so unhelpful i called the delta hotline and after waiting for about 45 min on hold i talked to a woman and insisted she get me and andrew on a plane the next day. she said that there weren't any flights til tuesday but i said that just WILL NOT do. there are most certainly planes on some other airline that will end up in LA on monday that are not booked. whether they are direct or routed through another city. so after looking thoroughly she found two seats on an american airlines flight and put us on that one. so at least we'd be getting back on monday rather than tuesday. so after that the delta song people at the airport were trying to get all of us a hotel somewhere. finally they got us one on long island and made us all ship off in buses like sheep. however they were VERY RUDE about it and one woman in particular was yelling at some passengers. that motherfucking bitch. we are ALL tired. not just you hunny. so take a chill pill and calm the fuck down. we finally got to the hotel around 6:30am and slept til it was time to go back to the airport.

at the airport we met stood in long ass fucking lines because we had to get our ticket transferred over from delta to american. luckily we ran into this couple who also was taking the same new flight and the 4 of us raised hell til we skipped a bunch of people in line and "supposedly" got our tickets transferred over. we went to american airlines only to find they hadn't transferred our tickets! those fucking morons. so the man at american (bless his soul) was able to transfer our tickets over. the 4 of us all got manually searched at security and got on the plane and sat in our separate seats. luckily the people around us switched seats and the of us randomly sat all together. and the rest is history...or more waiting at LAX airport. whatever you prefer.

so that was my NYC trip. good and bad. work didnt seem to mind too much that missed ANOTHER day after my first week of work. good lord! it's been catch up all week though. luckily the boss was out on vacation. yesterday i got my first free massage which was heavenly. can't wait for the next. had a lovely morning with andrew today and tonight is jen's birthday celebrations!!! pre-drinking here followed by dancing at bang!

andrew goes to montreal tomorrow for some work for dolby for a couple days. he gets back around the same time kyla gets in on tuesday night. so i'll probably be picking them both up. fun fun.

i'll close with some more pregnant britney photos. she's due in one month! and boy is she BIG. enjoy...

my new job is kicking my ass. so much work to do. not to mention all my freelance. i had to cancel last minute on the girl from my old work cuz i had to watch a movie tonight for work. not to mention i've got some comps to finish up cuz im leaving tomorrow night for NYC and the comps are due monday. so i've gotta get some ideas rolling right now to execute tomorrow at work. yes i bring my work home with me daily. and i stay late. it's pretty nutty. everyone that works at this company works a LOT. and i guess that's why they treat us so damned well. free lunch and dinner and massages. we need it cuz we work so much. i think tomorrow i'm gonna just stay at work til it's time to leave for the airport. order dinner at work (hell it's free!) and get more work done and then just go straight to LAX and fly to NY. sounds like a plan. i got my bag packed already anyway.

i know i have other anecdotal things to say but i can't remember them and i gotta get back to work anyway. its already midnight and i need to be going to bed soon!

first day on the job...LONG...

i have come to the quick realization that i will be working more than 8 hours/day most of the time. and i'm ok with that as long as i like what i'm doing. and i do like the work thusfar. i think i worked about 9.5 hours today and it flew by! so i mean if it's gonna fly that's cool. i'm down. plus i need to kickass considering i am going away to NYC this friday which doesn't look super hot for the first week AND it's a large company that apparently lots of people want to work at. they took a chance on me cuz they liked my work despite the fact that i didn't have much real world working experience. cuz once they saw i was barely out of the school they were sorta like "hmm...." but they liked my stuff. so i gotta shine and pull my weight to keep this awesome job. i mean seriously free lunch everyday and free bi-weekly massages. are u kidding me? that's fucking awesome. and they take care of their employees in other ways. two people have their dogs at work daily. one guy has this huge fucking fish tank as one of the walls of his office. i mean huge. one woman has her 16 month old son there. they gave her a room that could have a play area for the kid and a nanny! and one woman has her pet rats. i mean what company lets you do this stuff? not most. so yea. this place rocks and i wanna keep rockin the spot so i gotta pull the long hours. not quite sure when i'm gonna get to go to the gym now though...

man it's DEAD in LA. it's nutty.

- lawrence is on a road trip with jesse and his gf making this doc about roadside amusement. ie, the world's largest tomato.

- rick is in puerto rico with his sister.

- brian is in chicago for both business and pleasure.

- jen is on a road trip cross country with her bro.

- jessica is in boston and soon to be NYC for business and pleasure.

- stacey is in boston and soon to be NYC to visit friends.

- andrew is in holland to visit his friend on the way to germany for business.

7 people gone!! it's so dead here. it's sorta nice and relaxing. i mean i don't have to respond to massmailings and coordinate social plans. but it's also quite lonely.

my one day with andrew was lovely. we barely did anything but that was ok. i just got to see him in btwn japan and germany. we got vietnamese sandwiches and hung out with his friend charlie and his pregnant gf sara. she's due anyday. god it's nutty! we were gonna watch dr. strangelove afterward but i got sleepy so we didn't. then on saturday we slept in late and i took him to the airport and now he's gone again. =( i can't say that this isn't hard. cuz it is a bit. i mean he's gone a lot. next month he's gonna be in indiana for like 10 days and then probably japan again for a week. so that's like half the month. sorta like this month. once we get back from NYC he'll be going to canada for like 2 days i think which is nothing really but still.

anyway, last nite i went to see charlie and the chocolate factory with sami. it was a fun and weird movie. i didn't love it but i enjoyed it. and it was good to see sami again cuz i haven't seen her in awhile it seems.

today i have been very UNproductive. it's lovely. i've gotta get some shit done though now. some freelance work to finish up before i leave for NYC. still gotta go to the mechanic and get my car checked up. i HATE going there. they always think they can swindle me. i hate it. gotta call the 'rents now. that'll be at least a 45 min chore. talk about healthcare and my new job which starts tomorrow. i'm nervous about it. i hope they like me and i hope i have good enough photoshop skills.

leaving my old job on friday was weird. sorta sad. cuz i liked the people i worked with. i just wasn't thrilled with the job. so it was this love/hate relationship. so it was like good riddance CADs but sorry to see you go people. you know? that's why i hope this new job is better. i hope it's work i like and people i like. all in one little lovely package. cuz i'd like to spend some time at this company. get healthcare so i can get my checkups. get vacation so i can go somewhere! i've got money saved up but no time to go anywhere. and i really wanna go somewhere soon. but i can't. it's frustrating seeing everyone jet off to random places for a couple weeks and i can't because i haven't saved up enough days of vacation. and jumping job to job doesn't help.

i've been having weird dreams lately. i forgot to post about the other one i had the other night. but basically some guy broke into my house and was trying kill me with this huge knife. but then i grabbed the knife and started stabbing him repeatedly. but nothing happened. he didn't bleed or anything. finally he got the knife back from me and started stabbing me. that's all i remember.

last nite i had a dream with good ole MJ. yes the king of pop. he was meeting a bunch of people somewhere. like an in-store or something. he looked less creepy. i was there and i had caught wind that he liked me. apparently he wasn't into little boys anymore. and he liked me. i was creeped out. he was going up to people and saying hi and hugging them but when he got to me he sat down and started talking to me. we were talking for a bit and he invited me back to his place. the ranch u know. i don't know why i didn't just say i wasn't interested because i went. but then when i was there i was freaking out. i wanted to leave. he was off in some other part of the place and i was hiding. but then somehow he figured out i didn't want to be there. something to do with what i was watching on tv or something weird that makes no sense. like he sat down to talk to me and said what are you looking at. i showed him and when he saw some line of text he could tell i didn't want to be there. so he said something like "oh i see. ok well you should probably leave now." and that was that. i said i was sorry and i should have said something sooner. and then i woke up.

so bizarre. i wonder what these dreams mean....oh well. today is the last day of work here. surreal. my first real job coming to an end. i hope this next one is 10 times better. everyone thinks it will rock. i hope it does.

tomorrow is my last day of work. it's sorta sad yet exciting. i can't wait to start at the new place. i hope it's what i expect and what i need. more creativity in my job. i can't let myself get rusty and stagnant.

andrew comes back tomorrow and then leaves again the next day. so u betcha i'll be spending my night with him. cuz the next time i'll see him will be in NYC where i will meet his mom before him. good lord that will be awkward. i hope she's cool.

mac finally caved! they just announced the two click mouse!!! it looks all smooth and not two click but it is. it also has a mini wheel button in the middle. haha FINALLY!!!! it's about fuckin time...

tonight i'm going to see broken flowers with joe at the grove. sneak preview. hopefully we'll get in unlike the time with adam. that was a funny day though. it will be nice to see joe again one on one. it's been ages...

i bought a purse on ebay for my NYC trip and i specifically bought the one from the woman in culver city so i could just pick it up rather than wait for it to be shipped and pay for shipping. so i'm going to get that after work today.

i signed up at 24 hr fitness last nite so now i gotta start going next week. gonna get some new gym clothes beforehand. i have a few training sessions with a woman to show me the ropes and how the machines work. i wanted that cuz gyms intimidate me. and the pool at the gym is being fixed so i can't swim just yet. they have some classes i might wanna take. like yoga and salsa and stuff. we'll see. gotta get into the new routine with the new job starting NEXT WEEK!!!

3 more days left of my old job. i'm going to miss a few folks. so sad...but it seems like people are dropping like flies. so maybe it's for the best. at least they are interviewing new people. so they won't be hung out to dry. today i walked into the building and somehow managed to set off the alarm. good grief. not quite sure how i swung that one. haha luckily some people were there to turn it off!!

i've decided that for sure i want to join the 24 hr fitness near my new work. it's at the arclight complex. it's got a pool! i definitely want to utilize that. i have to swing by there and ask about stuff but not right now since there is an in-store at amoeba. god only know it'll be packed over there. so maybe i'll hit up a verizon first to ask about plans and switching over next month. then go to 24 hr fitness afterward.