i just had din din with joshy poo. haven't seen him in ages! it's been too long. the music is coming along well. listened to some of the demo. sounds good. not what i'd listen to really but it's good. it's like pop enthused rock. or maybe rock enthused pop. i haven't decided. haha

at work today we are attempting to stage a coup. overthrow the regime. well maybe not that drastic. but we are trying to one up the powers that be. haha it's fun to think of it that way. makes me feel like my work is exciting and jumping off the screen. coming to life like sword battles and guantlet runs. whooo my imagination has gotten the better of me now hasn't it? haha

i'm very excited for the shirts. i think they are going to turn out really well. i gave my friend the stuff to get the screen made. we are gonna make the shirts on sunday. can't wait!! so excited. good times. i think they will look really spiffy.

i finished the dance party shirt design and i think i'm happy with it. i quite like it at least. hopefully everyone else does. i ran into a few problems with this process so far. and i will probably never make tshirts for friends again as a result. 1) never let people have so much choice. they take too long in deciding and in the end it's a mess. ie. 20+ shirts in so many colors, sizes and styles your head would spin. i saw what the women at work had to do to get my order straight. she printed like all my emails and made sure she switched out things accordingly. double checked it over. all these pens marks! so yea. next time (if there is a next time) it's gonna be really simple. all one color. all one style. just a variety of sizes. 2) being that the tallest person i am accomodating is lawrence at 6'4" and the shortest person is about 5' 1" it is very hard to find a middle ground with the screen size. basically i had to come up with a design that works on all the tees. and i *think* i made it work. time will tell. it just sits differently on different shirts. and i'm ok with that. anyhoo, i can't wait to see them finished. should be fun!

oh man. i'm totally caught up in mel's wedding hysteria. like we were just online talking about it all. looking at dresses. etc. so exciting. i'm so tired now. but damn i'm excited!

i miss my andy...

so i've been ordering a lot of stuff via the internet. lots of xmas gifts. in fact i am basically done shopping minus the two things that are on backorder. as a result i've encountered a lot of customer service people recently and they've all been very pleasant and prompt. i had problems with my snapfish photos. no worries. kevin was right on it. tons of switching out items and backorders and all sorts of stuff with my fred flare order. no problem. vanessa was on the ball. she even waived my shipping fee in the end for all the hassle. i've got some stuff i want to order for andrew and the item is out of stock. not to fear, clare is here to help! she's got the owner of the company calling the manufacturer in the netherlands to find out what the hold up is! and the dance party shirts. my 20+ shirt order in a slew of colors and sizes. hectic as can be but luddy is right on it as she always is with my orders. so yea. i tend to always think that customer service people aren't that great or friendly or knowledgeable. but the encounters i've had recently have definitely swayed my opinion. at least for the meantime.

back to work...if all goes according to plan, the dance party shirts should be done this sunday. everybody cross your fingers!

p.s. i just realized i made an error. motorola makes the rokr and razr. not nokia.

ok i came up with a design that i am happy with but needs a bit of tweaking. not to mention i have to get the shirts to measure the size of the screen. and average it out btwn men and women and different shirt sizes. this may alter the design a bit. so i will buy the shirts tomorrow so that i can finalize the design. i realized that working with just one color is quite tricky. the negative and positive space is so limiting. reminds of when i first learned to use illustrator and we did exercises in that sort of stuff. yea, that takes me back. anyhow my eyes are fried so i'll get back on this tomorrow.

i'm sick of flip phones. they aren't that cool and they are all looking the same. not to mention they suck to answer with one hand. i want to go back to the basics. to the wonderful nokia days. the non-flip phone days. i want this phone.

it's sleek and functional. it's got a radio, camera, speakerphone, etc. all the normal functions of the normal phones out there. but it's not a flip phone. god i'm tempted to buy it at retail/ebay price. i dunno....

meanwhile, nokia has gone insane. i mean they've got the rokr and the really sleek skinny phone. but this phone below is truly a work of art. it's only for sale/use in europe but good lord. it's so intriguing and so non-functional. it's got a camera and everything but it's got no keypad. just buttons and a circular dial. it slides open to get reveal the camera. imagine texting messaging. probably impossibly hard. and making a phone call looks tedious too. but god is it cool looking. if it was sold here i might be tempted to buy it based on it looking so fucking cool. (click the image to see all it's features)

boo. andy is gone again. of to the land of the rising sun once more. returns on friday. it's always the same. when he leaves i'm sorta sad about it. then like 2 days later i'm actually pretty happy for the break. so yea. it's weird. anyhoom, i MUST finish the dance party design tonight. no ifs, ands, or buts. it must be done. that way i can give it to my friend to get the screen burned and make the shirts soon. i've got all the supplies ready. just gotta get the design done. gah!

i think i'm better now. andrew and i talked and i got to take a nap. i didn't get out of work til 5pm yesterday. sheesh! barely early. the whole fuckin factory was like closed except the web dept. shit. totally uncool. working the day after xmas is going to suck ASS as well. bleh. today i am going to finish the dance party design and give it to my friend i already bought the supplies. once i give him the design he will get the screen burned. then i'll order the shirts at work next week and bam. we can crank these puppies out! =)

wow this is depressing being here. at least i'm not the only one here. and u know what. i signed up to be here the day after xmas. i think i might cry. i think that was a bad idea. i think this holiday season is going to be sad. *sigh*

so here i am. at work. the day after thanksgiving. fun fun. i have things to work on but i can't motivate myself. hardly anyone is even here! yesterday wasn't half bad. spending thanksgiving with andrew and his cousin's family. it was kinda fun. talking to these people i barely know. wine was flowing which always helps. but now today is the big rush. only 29 more days of shopping left after today. oh no! luckily i have bought nearly all my xmas gifts already. and those i haven't bought are because they are on backorder.

the past few days i have been having crappy dreams about andrew and i. and i realize it's because i'm feeling a bit discontent. i don't feel like talking about it really but it's put me in this quasi-sour mood recently. not fun. even andrew noticed i was looking grumpy this morning. tis true. i didn't want to get into it before work but i will after i think. basically i just don't feel like he's as into it as i am. and like i feel like he still cares and everything but he's not showing it the way i want him to. he's not affectionate enough. and it's bothering me. anyway, bleh. i don't feel like getting into it. i wanna just go back to sleep actually. not be here "working."

melissa is engaged!!! holy mother of god. my best friend from kindiegarten. the twin towers. yes yes. she's engaged! i mean i saw it coming moons ago but still. now it's official. i'm not sure what else to say. she's the first to go it looks like. and soon they'll be droppin like flies. give it a couple years. i can see it. the deluge of weddings...

so i'm doing this freelance gig for the big shoe company with the symbol that looks like a check. yea i'm sure u know which one i'm talking about. they are promoting brazilian soccer and the beauty of it and whatnot. there is a doc they are pushing too. i'm actually not entirely sure what's going on because the point of this post is that they are so fucking confusing and difficult to work with. i got the gig through my old internship (god bless THE MAG for they have been by far the best company i've ever interned at). so i don't directly communicate with THE SHOE which is probably why it's a bit confusing. but it seems like regardless they just can't convey what they want very clearly. it's annoying. anyhoo, if it works out properly i'll have a nice little piece for the portfolio cuz it will look good. so it's worth the stress and pain and small measely amount of pay (the pay is alright but the amount of effort makes it feel measely).

i'm lonely right now. at home...alone...doing freelance work. normally i'd work faster so i could hang out with andrew but his cousin is visiting all week so i don't really want to interfere and hang out as much. also i'm not sure what his cousin thinks of me. i can't get a good feel for him. and i also don't think we have much in common to talk about. so yea. c'est la vie. i sit at home...alone...doing freelance work. at least i'm making money! oh and it's confirmed. i will be doing the gran_daddy cd package. woo! can't wait to get started.

oh yea. i am basically done with ALL my xmas shopping. woo! just waiting for some items to come in stock and then it's done. but if they were in stock i would be done. woo! all before thanksgiving. good shit.

this just about sums up our relationship...haha not really but we do make faces at each other a lot. so it's pretty dead on. this was at the mayday screening last nite. and below is one of me and sami with our cute new ties. we got them at the crazy fashion co-op we went to. got other stuff than that but those ties were by far the cutest things we got.

i think my tolerance for LA driving is diminishing daily. it has been a nightmare on the road for me these past few days. fucking assholes everywhere. it's really starting to kill me. just today i was driving down the street when a woman decides to make a u-turn in front of oncoming traffic. and when is a u-turn it was actually a 3 point turn but she did it at an intersection. except she did it so poorly that it was a 3 point turn. u cant do that shit with lots of cars coming! i swear she was going to hit me. then she goes down to the next light and when the light turns green she doesn't go. she puts her left hand turn signal on and stays put. that would sound fine except there is a left hand TURN LANE YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH. ugh i swear. i'm dying here. after much honking i finally just went around. clearly this woman had total disregard for traffic laws and my honking was not going to change that.

sometimes i want to kill.

oh my god. who the fuck do some people think they are? ok so i'm driving down the street and i stop behind a guy turning left. it's always annoying but what can u do? so i wait til the right lane is clear and i pull out to go in that lane. and this other car does the same behind me. now i don't know if that asshole thought i cut him off but then i end up right behind a stopped car. and that asshole honks at me and then passes me on the left. some dickhead in the backseat yells at me and i just let it go. but then we are face to face at a red light and i have my window partially down. he starts telling me some shit like i shouldn't do this or that and i just don't respond. cuz fuck it. what's the point? but then he says "oh so u don't speak any english. this is america. u should speak english." that made me so angry. surely people presume i'm mexican all the time. whatever. i don't care. but DO NOT assume i don't speak english and can't understand u just because i don't respond. fuck you. so i rolled down my window all the way and yelled out "i speak english asshole. i can understand you." and he says "good. you should speak english because this is america." and i said "what the hell? i'm driving. what is your problem?" and he starts ranting off some bullshit and the woman next to him is like giving me eyes like don't listen to him he's being stupid. but how could i not listen. he was yelling out the window at my car! fuck that mutherfucker. old black man who doesn't know what he's talking about. i should started yelling something racist slanted remark and see what he thought. fuck him.

i've hit a milestone today ladies and gentlemen. andrew and i have been going out for 6 months! well technically we met 6 months ago today. but that's my marker for us cuz the very next day we went out to see star wars which i count as our first casual date. but because we basically talked all night the night we met and went out the next day, i figure it was bound from the start. so therefore 6 months today. woo! conclusion thusfar: we need to work on two things. 1) compromise. 2) public affection. i hate PDA but sometimes we don't even look like we're dating. that's ok in one sense but not ok in another. so we need to work on that.

lookie lookie. andrew working in is PJs. how cute. notice the bear under his arm and next to him in some photos. that's mr. bear. he resides at andrew's house. andrew just *loves* mr. bear! haha

so i'm working at home as well. fun fun. doing some freelance. coming up with new room decoration ideas. trying to come up with the dance party shirt design too. lots of stuff. nothing on paper but lots of potential ideas. i gotta start actually WORKING. gah. it's sunday. i want to be lazy. but i can't. i procrastinate instead!

oh and the other night at dinner i met this guy who was like a mix btwn rowmike and the john i dated from art school. like totally looked like a mix btwn the two. it was seriously weirding me out all night. and he was british! so like the accent plus that weird familiarity. too much...

wow ever since the month of champions ended i've had so much more free time! it's crazy. and great!

i found out the other day that the management company that i did the soundtrack cd package for wants to potentially hire me to do the cd package for the band gran_daddy (to ensure they don't find this blog!). wouldn't that fucking rock?!? i totally want to do cd packaging as a career and i hope this comes through and i can continue to get work like this. that would be awesome. i'm meeting with the lead singer on wednesday during lunch (my first business lunch) to discuss ideas.

tonight me, andrew, jessica, and brian are doing our long-awaited double date. dinner at chan dara following by shopgirl at the arclight. should be good times.

til then it's more work/brainstorming and a couple errands. i've got nearly all my xmas shopping done (mostly via the internet) and i'm very excited about this.

these are all the things i want for xmas this year. minus the ipod that my parents have already agreed to get for me. i never really want much it seems. and basically it's just an attempt to catch up on my dvd collection. plus a few other goodies. i won't list music cuz it's always in flux and it's just too hard to keep up to date. so it's useless to ask for it for xmas. i *think* andrew is gonna get me that ring cuz he asked about it. but i also hope he figures out what size and color to get cuz i don't think he reads this thing. and if he does, well then he'll know!

off to amoeba...

oh yea. saw jarhead yesterday. it was just alright.

halloween 2005 wrap-up. consensus: SUCCESS!

so this year's halloween was definitely very tiring. lots of brewhaha and my costume was just too hilarious. what's worse is that it's mostly from american apparel and knowing that means that something is just wrong. anyhow, shaun's party was by far the best of my 3 halloween nights. nearly all my friends were there. some notable absences include jessica, joe, and andrew (!!!). nevertheless, brilliant time. shaun got his groove on and made a fantastic dance party mix that kept me going (weights and all) til nearly 4am. one boy at the party who i didn't know was my designated dance partner due to the fact that we were both dressed in 80s warmup gear. he was a fun guy to dance with. reminded me of joe in that way.

saturday was cap'n andy's party. poor thing was sick. but he still spun good tunes for at least a couple hours. there's nothing like dancing in crazy costumes on the beach.

sunday was the day of rest.

monday was the (not so) grand finale in weho. i had never been to the west hollywood halloween parade so i wanted to go this year. and let me tell u folks, it ain't worth it. i'd much rather be partying with my friends than walking around in the cold with thousands of strangers elbowing me and loud music playing. just isn't that fun. and parking is a real bitch.

so that was halloween in a nutshell. good times all around. mixed in there was a glorious SC homecoming victory over washington state.

the rest of this week has been work work work. andrew is in ohio and returns tomorrow. meanwhile i've been picking up more freelance again. so working on that. also figuring out xmas gifts. i'll have a revised list of what i want soon. but i'm working on what to get everyone else. i'll be super broke come new years. fun fun.